I have seen a number of bloggers asking the question on Twitter “what do you want to see more of on my blog?” They ask their readership to guide them, and I assume this is because they seek to please their audience. My reply is always “write what you want to write about, people came to your blog to read what you have always written – so there is no need to change your content.” I believe this to be true. You, my wonderful reader, decided to follow my blog because of the promise of delicious kinky sex, and given the lack of kinky sex in the last few weeks you are probably extremely disappointed!
Well, because I love to write. I may not be any good at it, from a technical point of view, but I love to write. The schools I attended in my primary years, did not teach grammar. When people talk about pronouns, conjunctions and other such things, I have to google their meaning. I am not ashamed of this need, I don’t claim to be all knowing but I do my absolute best to improve, or at least understand.
It gives me something to do.
Yes, I know, I keep harping on about my current situation. That is because at the moment it is consuming my life! I spend all day in bed because this is the only place where I am not in so much pain I cry and feel sick. It is too as this position means I that the saddle anesthesia improves. As soon as I sit or stand it slowly returns. Let me give you an example, it is 14 steps from my bed to the toilet. In the time it takes me to take those steps, and sit on the loo for a wee, I can no-longer feel as I wipe myself. That is how long it takes for the disc to compress the spinal nerves. It takes about an hour for the feeling to return, after I get back into the reclined position. The longer I am sat or stood, the more chance that the nerves could be permanently damaged, and so I stay in this position, with only the online communities and my cats for company. S2 brings me drinks and food but as I have said before, he is not ‘a friend’ that I can chat to, he is my son.
Once a fortnight, I have a chat with my cleaners – yes I have cleaners – they are a wonderful couple who have helped with the housework for 4 years, so Mr H does not have to clean the house as well as look after me, and do all the cooking! The rest of the time I watch TV, knit, crochet, and work on here.
One of the TV programs that Mr H and I are binge watching is Criminal Minds, and they often have a quote at the beginning and or the end of the show. One of them really hit home with me and I wanted to share it with you.
Better to write for yourself and have no public, than to write for the public and have no self.
Cyril Connolly [The New Statesman, 25th February 1933]
Pretty deep eh? So that’s my nugget of wisdom for today. Write for yourself, be true to yourself, write about things that inspire you, write because you simply have to put the words on paper, and above all speak from your heart. Everything else will work itself out in the end.
PS….. There will be more kinky fuckery on the blog soon, I promise 🙂