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Would I lie to you?

Well would you? Would you?  I would.  In fact I do, all the time.  I lie to myself daily, hourly even.  There are times when the lies are all I have.  The biggest and most frequent one.  I’m fine. People ask me, “how are you?” They don’t want the truth, they want a lie, they expect a lie.  If you tell them the truth too much they hide away from it, and you.  They don’t want to hear that it hurts so bad I feel sick, or that I just wet myself because I didn’t know I needed to go. 

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wish list

Bucket List or Wish List

I don’t really have lists of what I want to do, I gave up on them after my dad died.  What is the point of making lists and plans when they can be taken from you at the drop of a hat?  So I can’t really do a bucket list.  I believe if you want to do something bad enough don’t ever wait, you’re not guaranteed tomorrow.  Instead I am going to do a wish list. Living for Right Now Does that mean I never make plans? Of course not, I mean I’m not a neanderthal. We plan holidays that

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book

A Whole Library

The food for thought prompt this week is one book.  Choose one book…. And, for me that is simply impossible!  I have so many books that at one time I had a database to keep track of them.  I am a very fast reader.  I mean really fast.  I read a 250 page book in about one and a half hours, so when I went to the library I would take out 10 books to last 1 week (bearing in mind I only read on an evening when T was in bed). Childhood books The Secret Garden by Francis Hodgson

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Might not will

There is a difference between the words ‘might’ and ‘will’ but my brain has trouble with this.  No, I’m serious and I bet I am not the only one… Let me give you an example.  On Thursday night MrH said his tummy hurt and I asked if he wanted something to ease it.  He said he did not and I responded with “OK” and dropped it.  Normally I would have followed up with an “are you sure?” but I did not.  As a result he said, “you might get a treat for that tomorrow night.” That’s what he said; but

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Faking Orgasms? Not anymore.

I have written about this topic before, and how I mentally justified faking it for many years.  In reality it still bothers me that I did this.  I don’t like that I did it and I don’t like ‘why’ I did it.  I don’t fake it now, I am sure that many women say that, don’t they?  I faked it with other partners but not with you dear.. Anyway, I digress. There are times when Mr H will ask me to cum for him and I think “I have” (usually I because I am incoherent I struggle to speak) but I

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kidney stones

Taking Turns – MrH goes to Hospital

Mr H is in hospital, he has kidney stones causing problems again.  They have been causing problems for a few days and today it got too much.   He came home from work, and phoned me.  Several times. I had my phone on silent.  It’s only my second day at my new job and I always have my phone on silent.  In the end he phoned the office, to ask me to drive him to the hospital. I couldn’t stay with him, for one because he wouldn’t let me and secondly because my back won’t let me.  I can’t risk being

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Don’t look back in anger

This song has had a lot of coverage in the last couple of years.  After the Manchester Arena bombing it was sung over and over in tribute to those who died and as a reminder that the people of Manchester would not be beaten by acts of terrorism.  It isn’t really a favourite of mine.  I haven’t really been an oasis fan ever but when I saw this weeks prompt for food4thought I wasn’t sure what to write and this this morning as I was reading through posts from the people I follow inspiration hit me, I chose not to

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birthday

Happy birthday to Me

Today is my birthday, and I am 45 years old.  I don’t generally celebrate my birthday, I’ve had so many disappointing birthdays where people I thought were friends cancelled plans with me that I learned to protect myself by not making any. 21st birthday Take my 21st birthday, at the time I had only 1 close friend, and we had planned to go out for a night of dancing.  The day before she told me she couldn’t make it, I can’t remember the excuse she gave me but I was gutted.  I went to visit my dad in Yorkshire and

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Memory lane

My dad passed away suddenly in 2003, from a massive heart attack, and I know I’ve talked about this before but, about a year or so after he passed I woke up from a vivid dream, sobbing.  Now I don’t know if you or even if I believe it’s possible that loved ones who have died can come and visit you in your dreams, but that night, well you decide…… I was dancing with my dad, like I did when I was little,  standing on his feet.  He didn’t speak to me, he just held me and danced. I don’t

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awkward

Awkward!!!

I’ve had many awkward moments in my life, and not all of them linked to kink, in fact most of them come from my vanilla life. Kids. There was the time T walked into the bedroom carrying a very large kitchen knife and an apple (he was 3).  Mr H and I were having sex, and he wanted the apple peeled. Mr H calmly peeled the apple and T went back downstairs to watch his movie. Then there was the time when T was about 13 and he told a room full of people that he thought I had planned

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