Hats off to the Brave.

A few posts recently have focused on facing fears, pushing past them, defeating them.

Missy (subMissy) shared in a recent post that she is going to try and face her body image issues by taking part in an online photo sharing project and Dayliacatt commented on her post that her Master had set her the task of posting pictures on certain websites to show her that she was attractive to the masses.

I take my hat off to these ladies.

I’ve posted some pictures of myself, it’s true, but when I posted them I was in all honesty high as a kite on endorphins and sex! I mean who doesn’t feel sexy as fuck after a bloody fantastic session (or two or three).

If I look at these images in the cool light of normality all I see are flaws. Thighs that are lumpy and fat, that bulge over my knees. Fat calves and lumpy ankles. If I wear hold up stockings they dig in and again my thighs look like they are being cut in two… My belly is scarred by stretch marks and surgical scars. By breasts once full and bouncy now look saggy and droop. I’ve lost 5 stone. Most of the time I’m thrilled with it. Clothed I’m more than happy with myself.

Naked… I’m still disappointed. I kneel and look at my thighs. Fat and chunky. I’d probably need to loose another 2 stone to have any chance of having legs I could be proud of.

But I’d risk having no bust at all if I did. And I would hate that.

I wish I could be less critical of myself.

I wish I could see myself through MrH eyes. He takes such delight in me.

I have to close my mind off to a part of myself and think only of his touch, his body, what he wants of me.

I have a voucher I got before Christmas (and before I was banned from purchasing without permission) it’s for a boudoir photography shoot. The voucher gets me 1 A4 print to keep. I need to book it in the next 2 months, which is fine, only right now… I can’t. I wanted to do it as a surprise. I’m going to have to ask MrH to accompany me. I’m going to need him to select the outfits. Because I am not brave enough.

So, I’m in awe of the aforementioned ladies, to Missy for deciding to challenge herself, and to Dayliacat for doing as she was instructed.

As Dayliacat discovered from her experience there are many people who also view her body as sexy and beautiful, I’m sure Missy will be equally admired, I certainly think she has a stunning figure (and I’m extremely jealous)….

25 Replies to “Hats off to the Brave.”

  1. My sweetgirl. You are beautiful and sexy. Your body bears the marks of a women that has given birth to two wonderful children and for that I thankyou. It shows you have strength and resilience of a warrior princess. Your body didn’t change over night so it will take time. Lots of love MrH

  2. I applaud those other ladies. But you are far too harsh on yourself. Get yourself where you want to be. If your breasts are too saggy (only by your standards) you can always see a doctor. As you know, my Queen had surgery. I spent years trying to talk her out of it and then finally went with the flow. I supported her 100%. She did it for herself not for me or anyone else. But I will admit to enjoying the change in her mental attitude. That is really fun.
    Listen to Mr H. He sees the real you. And he loves you for being you. That’s what life is all about! Btw, I have really enjoyed the few pictures I’ve seen of you. You are beautiful!!

      1. Understand me when I say surgery, I’m sure MrH wouldn’t think you need it. It would only be for you and your self imaging needs. If it isn’t for you then try and see yourself through his eyes. Of all the people on this earth only MrH or your children see the real you!!

          1. What I discovered was that it wasn’t as expensive as I thought and that at least in some cases there were payment options. So never say never! Besides you might win a lottery!!

          2. You never know lol I’d like a castle 😀 with a moat … And a big garage so I can tinker with my motorbike…

            And of course plenty of secret passages to kinky rooms 😁😁

  3. Awww thank you for the mention sweetgirl. I agree with what the others have said – you are beautiful inside and out and you should try not to put yourself down so much. It has taken me a long time to shuffle slowly along to where I am now and I know that I still have a way to go. I think we are always so much more critical of our bodies than others are which is what has prompted me to try to do something about it. When I see a picture posted which reveals a real body, I feel nothing but admiration for the person and immediately see the beauty. Your pictures are gorgeous and I hope that you find your way to posting more of them soon. Hugs xxx

  4. Was struggling with this issue myself today so you’re post is quite timely for me. It’s a shame we can’t all see ourselves through our loved ones eyes. Our kids think we are beautiful. Our partners think we are sexy af. But when we look at ourselves all we see is our flaws. It’s a real shame.

  5. You are beautiful, more beautiful than you’ll ever know. And there’s nothing like the love of a man who sees all the beauty in you and so much more 💖

    1. Thank you 😊 I saw a picture on the internet after I posted this (I was looking for an image for another post) and it said:

      And he said,

      Who are you going to believe? A mirror, a photograph, or the eyes of the man who thinks you’re the most beautiful woman in the world?

          1. You should! I like making affirmations and quotes for social media although I miss printing them more so I can put them where I can see them. Right now, what I have in front of me is a calendar that says “What you do speaks so loudly that I cannot hear what you say” by Ralph Waldo Emerson.

            If I had a man who appreciated me for who I am and how I looked, I’d have that saying you found in front of me instead 🙂

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