According to one of the bloggers I follow (Furcissy), there used to be a set word used to describe the amazing feeling you get during intense play. For me I like to say subspace, because I feel I float away, I’m weightless, away from myself, feeling everything but so entirely well… amazing.
This is different to me than what I describe as my submissive mind set/mental state, which is simply feeling submissive/willing to submit.
It’s been a while since we had any play that really pushed me for a significant amount of time into this subspace. I’ve had moments, glimpses, been pushed to the edge of drifting but pulled back quickly.
This isn’t a complaint, don’t misunderstand, I’ve asked MrH to ‘use me’ as I have found this to be very erotic and it helps to sustain my submissive mind set. I love it when he takes pleasure by holding my hair in his fist to control my head and using my mouth, thrusting my head onto his cock until I can taste his precum, or alternatively holding my head still and thrusting into my mouth… Well I’m wet and ready just remembering 😊…
I think it’s perhaps because we haven’t been away… I’m missing the play where we have multiple sessions close together…
Not all our D/s play leads to sex either… Rope play for example, MrH ties me up in whatever manner he is working on. He may take a photo if he’s happy with the result, and then he unties me and we go to sleep.
The cane is the same..mostly if MrH uses the cane on me he will pick a point to end play, put the cane away and we move to aftercare and sleep.
I think it’s a good thing because it means I’m not always thinking this will end in an orgasm … Which I would .. because well I like them hehehe … And also not everything should come down to a sexual release. When MrH’s goal is relaxation with the cane or rope that’s what he does, and I always sleep well.
The things that send me into subspace, generally starts with a multiple or forced orgasm, that ebbs and flows, over and over, where my body never fully comes down between peaks and reaches higher each time, then suddenly it’s almost like a silent explosion inside my mind and it disconnects, then I’m floating, no-longer thinking, just reacting instinctively…. It’s been a while since I went there….. I wonder when MrH plans to send me back…..