My plan for Saturday will be based around the following activities.
We haven’t played in a few days and I asked him if he was deliberately withholding in order to make me desperate.. he said not but it’s had that effect.
Unfortunately it’s also lifted my submissive mental space. I’m starting to recognise the feeling … It’s almost like I’ve been surrounded by warm comforting blanket my whole body feels languid my mind calm.. even with everything that’s been going on with the stress and strain of the last few days at work my mind has been calmed by my chain and thinking of MrH… Yesterday it began to lift … By bedtime I could feel that submissive mental space fading …. This morning it was gone.
I reached out to MrH when I woke up, I put my hand on his shoulder and tried to get my mind to surrender. He told me to roll over and he hugged me, I was the little spoon, my mind still didn’t comply.
MrH changed my collar and while I knelt I felt a glimmer of my submissive self.
When we got downstairs I knelt at his feet with my head on his knee. Sir stroked my hair and as he did I felt my shoulders relax. I felt the blanket surround me as my submissive mind returned.
Opening MrH’s email pushed me deeper ….
Looks like I need to get some practice in today or it will be the the worst private dance in history!