There are times when I feel like I ‘need’ MrH to push me into feeling submissive. This usually coincides with times when our bedroom play has been limited.
Our children are not children anymore at 24 and 19 (sorry for those followers who already know that) and MrH and I have no intention of them being aware of our D/s relationship, or the BDSM elements that we experiment with and/or enjoy.
That means that when they are at home and awake our play can be severely restricted. Recently our 19 year old “heard” MrH spanking me, and he came out of his bedroom to ask if the sounds were coming from our room.
MrH is planning to start exploring rope bondage but doesn’t want to have the situation occur where the kids want our attention and I’m in odd positions. I guess if he’s able to lie me down and put the quilt over me it may look like I am just in bed, but these interruptions do spoil the mood.
So for the last week MrH hasn’t played with me. What? Just a week I hear you say? Get back to me when he’s been away for months!!! Suck it up. I’m feeling – almost disconnected. Not necessarily from MrH, because we still snuggle and do our daily rituals, more from my submissive mental state.
When MrH plays with me, I float away from my body and loose myself in him. I’m his, that’s all I know, I’ll be and do what ever he asks of me, as long as I can keep floating.
Having not had that for the last week – I just don’t feel quite right.
I don’t know.
I’ve read about feeding submission, but how? Being new to this I’m floundering, and I’ve discussed it with MrH his morning and asked him if he can think of anything to help me. I don’t know what he may come up with or even if he fully knows what I am feeling to be able to help.
So I’m asking my followers:
Subs: have you felt this and how do you deal with it?
Dominants: have you seen your subs experience this and how did you deal with it?