I don’t sleep well.
Or should I say, the pain meds intake sometimes stop me from sleeping. Last night was one of those nights. I was still awake at 3am so I’m heading off to work on about 2 hours sleep.
Which will make today challenging to say the least.
I lay in bed next to MrH and listen to him breathe, his breaths are deep and steady, reassuring. I’m exactly where I want to be. The issues at work have settled, I wasn’t going over things in my head, but last night I would drop off for about 10 mins then wake up. So basically not asleep long enough to get to the restorative sleep level.
When I feel tired like this my submission is easier, I don’t want to be able to control anything. My brain drops to the default setting of ‘instructions required in order to operate’ sometimes I feel like a coin operated machine …. if no instructions are inserted I’ll remain off.
But I have to go to work where I have to make decisions and operate to a high level. Yes indeed, it’s going to be an interesting day.
I’m getting ready and I’m already counting down to home time… counting down to walking in and returning to Sweetgirl mode, where MrH can take control of me and I can be at peace.