During a light hearted online group discussion yesterday I typed ‘rolls eyes’ in response to a comment by one of the Dom’s (who from here on I will refer to as MrX because using Dom all the time reads quite aggressively). Now MrX is aware that MrH has forbidden eye rolling at him, and so MrX commented that he would inform MrH of my eye rolling.
Before I go any further [insert Meatloaf song 😂 ] I want to make it clear that I respect MrX and any other persons who I interact with online and I am in no way complaining about his comment. Our conversation was lighthearted and I look forward to many more conversations in the future.
I replied that he could tell MrH if he wanted, I was only forbidden to eye roll at MrH. MrX then asked ‘so MrH is ok with you being disrespectful to other people just not him?’ And I replied ‘yep’. MrX expressed the opinion that MrH did not run a very tight ship because he allows this behaviour.
The exchange got me thinking, and I know MrH considered posting a reply to address this but the conversation moved on to other things.
I’m a very playful person and banter, eye-rolling, joking and sarcasm is part and parcel of my personality. I know MrH doesn’t want to change me – he loves the person I am – but he loves the fact that I am submissive to his demands. That I will temper my behaviour as he asks me to, that I will submit and defer to his leadership in a way I will not to anyone else.
Having said that, MrX’s comments have brought to the fore one of my concerns for immersion into the community. MrH is planning for us to go to a local club and I worry that I will get us both into trouble by being seen as disrespectful in the way I converse with other Dominants.
MrH maintains that providing I am doing as he asks it will be fine. That if someone has a problem he will explain that I submit to him and no one else and therefore he has no problem with me talking to others and having a laugh.
I hope that MrX reads this and understands… my eye rolling is just part of who I am, and that I meant no disrespect. MrH’s ship is sailed as he commands 😊